My first week microdosing psilocybin felt like a success.

I noticed a decrease in irritability, anxiety, depression and a huge decrease in my desire to drink alcohol. I also noticed I was more accepting of circumstances out of my control. I felt less like I had to micro-manage and control every little thing, and felt like I was finally able to just be at peace in the moment.
I am following the Stamets Protocol created by Mycologist Paul Stamets which is a regimen of 4 days on, 3 days off, with a 2-4 week ‘reset’ every 4 weeks. There are a few different popular protocols I found during my initial research but I chose this one because it seemed more robust and I was desperate to see results.

On my first day I took 0.3 grams and had very very slight visual effects. You shouldnt have any ‘trippy’ effects with microdosing so I decided to cut that in half, to 0.15 grams and feel this is a much more appropriate dosage for me. 
[ For reference I am 5’2” and haven’t weighed myself in years but am estimating about 150-160lbs. ]

On my second ‘off’ day I had strong urges to drink which I gave into, and I did unfortunately end up having another violent episode and flashbacks later on in the night, spending the next day feeling horribly guilty, ashamed and depressed. On a positive note I did avoid self harm which I am proud of, but I made the decision to not drink anymore and to try to really stick to that, otherwise all the other work i am putting in is almost kind of pointless really…

While I love the results I am seeing thus far, I am concerned my ‘off’ days won’t be as good as my ‘on’ ones, but I think it just needs to build up in my system a bit. I decided that once per cycle (30 days) I will incorporate a Macrodose of 4 grams into my regimen.